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I'm feeling weird.

I know I'm happy, well, not so much happy, but relieved about the divorce, but I can't shake this feeling of missing Lance. I see pics of him, and I have to remind myself that behind that sweet smile, are those bad habits, the fights, the drugs and beer. It's just he was sweet at one point, ya know? Before we got married. I don't know. If after a long time, he changed his act, I got through school, and everything, maybe we'd give it another shot. But I know he's not going to change. I don't know. I'm bugging. I signed off my papers and everything, sent them off, along with Robert's cookies, and Christmas card. I am almost done with everyone else's Christmas cards. I still have a couple to do yet. But anywho, yeah, I'm doing great, Nina is doing great, it's wonderful. :D I love being a single mom.

-Rachel

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twindaw
Dec. 21st, 2006 04:07 pm (UTC)
I can't imagine how you're feeling- but I do know that you're right-- he isn't going to change, or if he does, it will take a lot-- look, I mean, he hasn't even changed much and you took his daughter! That'd certainly do it for me!

Anyway-- congrats and have a merry Christmas1
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